This poem is an apology to someone who I didn’t deserve.
I chose the friends who taunted me
over your loyal company
and I regret it just a little bit now
but back then I just didn’t know how
how to fight the feelings of wanting to fit in
how to be myself and not feel so stretched thin
how to sing proudly and not fear my voice’s sound
how to look within myself and once again be found.
We used to go on adventures and fight battles in our make-believe wars
the playground was our castle and the fields, the great outdoors
we believed we were untouchable, better than the rest
we cast spells against our enemies who got too close to our nest
we would close our eyes, as our imaginations intensified
and every day was different and delightful with you by my side
those days I will cherish, a memoir of better years
days that were filled in fascination, in courage, and in cheers.
So I’m sorry I was fragile, I was stupid, I was meek
I swore we would be friends forever, but I was gone within a week
I didn’t deserve you
the me who was so easily swayed from one side to the next
but I just can’t help but hope we’ll meet again in some pretext.
I hope you are doing well
I hope you have found your way
I hope there are people who are there for you
who love and care for you
who brighten up your day
and I hope they aren’t as foolish as the me from those years past
I hope those friendships flourish
I hope those friendships last.