with purpose

busy streets and the sweet smell of rain
the harrowing roar of the incoming train
we stare blankly, confused but so aware
we are lost, but we don’t seem to care

everyday, we searched for something more
and hoped that when we turned past each concrete corner
that we’d see something we’d never seen before
something to justify how long we’ve suffered within our lonely selves
something to bring back the light into the hollows of our eyes
something to answer the darkness drowning in our cries

there’s a bridge ahead
it creaks and moans
and we know that when we cross
it will fall apart beneath our feet
but we don’t need to hesitate
we know just where we need to be

our fingers lock
you hold me steady
we take each step in perfect synchrony
and we feel the warmth coursing through us
as the sun rises
banishing the demons of our past
we have found a new horizon at long last.

this castle of mine

there is a weakness emerging from the shadows that threatens to consume me

I’ve lost the will to stand and fight and so I cower within my fortress

I shut my eyes and cross my arms –

shift my thoughts into another place more gentle than this reality

I believe for a moment that I am safe in the haven of my own mind

but these walls will not protect me from the poison rising from the floor

every second, it creeps closer

and closer

until someday it will take my breath away

with no intention of giving it back.


as I brace myself for the surrender

I lean back against the cold stone

and to my surprise, a new path emerges – a secret of this castle

I find that I am no longer paralyzed from the depths of this malicious maelstrom

instead all around me, a growing sense of freedom

I open my eyes and there is hope where nothing existed before

a new chapter lies beyond this path

and I am honoured to be its witness.


Everybody makes mistakes. Forgive yourself.



the dark behemoth that triumphs over

this murky mountainous mess

composed of all your wrong decisions.


you look behind you

but you can longer see the path

that led you here today

you can only move forward.


he bares his crimsom fangs

soaked in the blood of your past forsaken dreams

but there is no time to mourn

as he approaches

ready to strike again.


you whisper a soft prayer

but know that no one will come to your aid

and so you prepare for the impact

with your arms wide and legs rooted

you wait for his charge

straight into your embrace.


fighting was never the answer

and so you chose to forgive

you hold firm

as he sobs meekly in your arms

as you both grieve

for everything that could’ve been

should’ve been

and never will be.


as dawn approaches

he fades away

nothing more but a shadow once again

and before you

lies a boulevard that infinitely diverges

and no matter what you decide is the right direction

you know that hope will light the way.


For all those who wander are not lost.

For a long time

I’ve waited

to feel freedom

from beyond this fathomless trench

I spent years digging myself into.


But even as I walk down this golden path

I feel the tension beneath my feet

with every step

the shadows loom closer

taking delight in the consumption

of light hearts and gaiety.


it’s almost as if

someone has painted an ebony black

over the rainbow I had prized

as my most guarded dream


there is no such thing

as security.


Still I must not crumble

underneath this continuous weathering

the promise of better days

is not that far away

from beyond this blasted hurricane

I believe that clearer skies will light the way

towards a life that’s truly worth living.

But I am free.

It took me a long time to realize
that wrestling with my demons
only increased their resistance
so with every blow I inflicted
they retaliated with vengeance
a steady spiral into despair.

It took me a long time to realize
that conquering your demons
meant acknowledging their existence
forgiving instead of hating
accepting their place in your past
and moving on.

It took me a long time to realize
that drowning in depression
was allowing it to define who I am
but I am more than the barrage of hollow feelings
I am more than that lifeless shadow.

It took me a long time to realize
but I know it now
and I can feel the promise flowing in the air
and I can sense the magic lying everywhere
and I can finally see
with my eyes set free.

Saying “Goodbye”.

“You’ve changed.”

Hint of anger in his voice. Fists clenched. His eyes won’t meet mine.



I reply. Calm. I take a deep breath, keeping the tears swelling in my eyes at bay. I’ll cry later when he’s not around. Crying now will only weaken my resolve.


“And I haven’t, have I?”

His eyebrows furrow in frustration. He steps closer. I move back. I need the distance.



I grasp my left wrist with my right hand. Need. To. Stop. Shaking.


“Every time, something goes wrong in your life, I’m there for you. I’m dependable.

I know everything about you.

Every little secret.

And I make things better. I make you happy.

You can’t leave me now.

You need me.”


He lifts his head so that his eyes meet mine. His gaze is piercing. I shiver. But I do not fold. I retaliate.

“I needed you. Not anymore. Never again.”


He grimaces but quickly recovers. His expression softens. The corner of his lips curve into a smile.

“You’ll come back to me soon enough. You always do. Enjoy your little alone time.”


He laughs.

In the past, that would’ve been enough to crack me.

Now, I am unfazed.



I turn and walk away without a second glance. His laughing stops.



I don’t. My arms stop shaking. My entire body relaxes.


Psychologically and physically,

I am free.


not sure what to make of it

not sure how to make it stop

you’re throwing poison in the air

fighting a war that just ain’t fair


justice becomes a ghost

when you throw daggers at her back

it’s enough already, you’ve got to see

the light ain’t where it used to be


you can’t escape day and night

you’re not faster than the speed of light

you’re not above the rest of us

presumptuous and vainglorious


I’ve seen enough of your damning ways

the twisted logic in your brain

you’re living in the past

of dynasty days

so stuck up in a foggy haze


you manipulate by telling lies

what do you suppose that signifies?


you are the bitter taste of indignation

the epitome of loveless legislation


you make it seem like there’s no way out

from under your control

but we can do it

I believe

the world is ours to love and dream

Fight for Freedom (re: Hong Kong)

This post will be a little unusual compared to my usual content, but I felt that since the matter was so close to my heart, it wouldn’t be right to not put a little more thought into what is happening around me.

I was born in a beautiful, bustling city where the streets are always crowded with people moving along at a busy pace, putting out their best efforts in earning their living. I was born in a city that was epitome of the idiom, “time is money” where everyone seems to be needed somewhere urgently. I was born in a city with advertisements on every corner and with streets designed perfectly for balanced market competition – there are streets solely for the purpose of selling and purchasing technology, for cell phones, for shoes, for stationary, and for everything else you could possibly need. I was born in a city that never sleeps for at night, the markets only get livelier and the streets are lit up from end to end. I was born in a city where sun almost always shines and where people are happy with just little things.

But most importantly, I was born in a city that was free.

Yes, I was born in Hong Kong. And yes, I believe in this ever growing “umbrella revolution”.

If you haven’t heard about the recent chain of protests, then I suggest you get yourself educated. I will leave links at the bottom of the post for convenience.

What provoked me into writing this was the amount of criticism I’ve been seeing around on the internet – particularly on Youtube and social media. There are three main points of criticism that I believe are completely invalid and so removed from the core issues that Hong Kongers are fighting for. I am flabbergasted that Western countries are not giving full support and are sometimes even downplaying the situation.

The first point they make is that democracy isn’t as great of a system as commonly believed and therefore Hong Kongers are foolish to fight for something that isn’t even worthwhile. These critics throw America in as an example. Yes, I agree, the USA is in debt and has a multitude of problems that must be resolved, but at least those of us, in democracies, now what’s happening. At least we have a say in who gets power. At least we have the freedom to express how we feel. The core issue Hong Kongers are fighting for is autonomy, not democracy. They want a choice in who has power, they want the freedom to vote for who they want and they don’t, for many reasons, want that power to be in the hands of a pro-Beijing official. Hong Kongers do not want to have their rights taken away from Chinese socialism. If you don’t believe that the Chinese government is restrictive, then I want you to take a look at their censorship policies. People are harshly punished for any kind of criticism against the government and they’re not allowed access to a multitude of information (banned by the same government). Understand that in Hong Kong, there are no such restrictions. And that Hong Kongers are simply fighting to maintain the freedom that we take for granted in democracy.

The second point people often make is that protesting is a useless method of provoking change and that it will simply escalate the situation rather than make it better. The fact that you’re making this comment already makes that invalid. It’s not useless. It’s raising awareness, it’s building public support (the crowds get bigger and bigger with each day), and it’s putting Beijing and the Chinese government in a tight situation. How can you restrict and suppress the rights of Hong Kongers, how can you break a (nearly) twenty year old promise when the whole world is watching?

Lastly, there are those that believe that this isn’t big enough of an issue to be protesting for – that this isn’t important. It is the most important thing to have occurred in Hong Kong in the past two decades. Beijing’s announcement that they would screen candidate members for the 2017 election is a betrayal of the promise made in 1997 when Britain handed over Hong Kong to the Republic of China. They promised “one country, two systems”, they promised the retention of freedom and autonomy in Hong Kong. When you break a promise that affects over eight million people, not only is it important, it is wrong. If we let them get away with seemingly minor settlement, then who’s to stop them in the future? When there are only pro-Beijing representatives in power? Who’s to stop them from assimilating Hong Kong into China? It is better we act now rather than later.

It is better we make our voices heard now. Let us make Hong Kong the center of attention in South East Asia. Let us raise awareness of this broken promise and let the whole world be a voice of justice. Let us be the voice of reason that pushes Beijing to listen to the citizens of Hong Kong. Let us support the youth that have been peacefully protesting in the streets of business districts – let them know they’re not alone.

You don’t have to care, you don’t have to support them. But please, don’t judge, don’t downplay their efforts just because they’re fighting an issue you don’t understand.  We are too often too quick in throwing out judgement and that, more than anything, needs to change.

Protesters in Hong Kong begin to carry umbrellas to protect against  rain, sun and tear gas. (Image from Associated Press/ABC News).
Protesters in Hong Kong begin to carry umbrellas to protect against rain, sun and tear gas. (Image from Associated Press/ABC News).

Read more about the “umbrella revolution”:

Hong Kong People! (nytimes)

 5 things to know about the ‘umbrella revolution’ (CBC)

Global Support Pours In for Hong Kong Protests (Time magazine)

Hong Kong’s 1997 Handover (Britannica)

Wikipedia – Transfer of Sovereignty 

Hong Kong protests stand ground ahead of Chinese national day (Guardian)

Protesters stay out on Hong Kong streets, defying Beijing (Reuters)

What’s at stake for Hong Kong? (npr)

one of these days

one of these days

i’ll paint you a dream

a melange of smiles and laughter

an imaginary stream


one of these days

the world will be brighter

we’ll find a place that’s just ours

and our troubles will be lighter


one of these days

i’ll hold you in my arms

place your heartbeat next to mine

and whisk away all harms


one of these days

when we’ve chittered and chattered

we’ll find freedom in each other

and we’ll be all that ever mattered.

the beauty inside of you

just this once

listen to me

stop the hurricane

of tears and screams

from hurting

the beauty

i know and love

the beauty

inside of you


just this once

let go of what you wish you were

and love a little more

for who you are

see the light

i love you for


just this once

don’t fear what you don’t know

don’t let the demons reach

they’ll shout

they’ll shriek

but you won’t let them in

not this time

not again


just this once

believe in what we are

let shadows become our strength

let none interrupt our bliss

follow through

and don’t let go

i’ll always be there for you


and in case you didn’t hear that

the first time

or the last time

or any other moment of your life

i’ll always be there for you