Our broken hearts have healed.

we had our hearts broken

too sudden in its wake

and the uprising of emotion

was too much for us to take

 

you decided to release it

in an inferno of anger and frustration

and so you were always on the edge

ready to explode

but I didn’t want anyone to know

just wanted to contain it

hoped the feeling would go away

so I crumpled it all inside my heart

and kept it all at bay

 

but you can only run so far

before you have to face the truth

and on the nights when I just couldn’t take it

I would cry myself to sleep

release my inhibitions

give into a woeful weep

 

sometimes I wonder

if the reason why you fear love

is because you fear what you could become

because you fear what makes us numb

 

but you always looked out for me

in your own roundabout way

as if you could fix the damage done

while you were also hurting

as if you could fill the hole

while it weighed upon your soul

 

we’re older now

and the wound no longer stings

but it’s shaped a little of who we are

and in our memories, has left a scar

we press on forward

because that’s all we know to do

we still have some problems

but I think we’ll make it through.

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Inspiring Blog Award

Rules to this award:

1. Thank the person who gave you the award.

2. Tell 7 things about yourself that will not have come up in your blog entries.

3. Pass it on to 7 blogs you find inspiring and explain why.

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So first of all, thank you to much to dear Steph at lostupabove. She provides me with overflowing inspiration by posting up all these amazing poems by the most inspiring poets that I otherwise would not have the time to go look at it. She also often shares with us different forms of art such as music. Those are a pleasure to look at really and I always take something out of her posts.

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Seven things about me…This is a little difficult, I’ve already used up a lot of my good facts.

1. I play excessive amounts of Draw Something on my phone. There’s something about doodling that piques my interest continually.

2. I laugh a lot. Sometimes for no reason. Including at my own jokes, of course. Even if no one else does.

3. I love apples. But my braces make it hard to eat them. Can’t wait to get them off in a year and a bit.

4. I like sharpened pencils. Dull ones make me sad.

5. I love. easily.

6. I’m extremely indecisive and thus, get confused easily.

7. I’m a little sadistic and mean. Sometimes.

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Seven nominees!

1. Authormercedes because her poetry is relatable. Also because she’s been so supportive of me that I almost feel spoiled. Thanks lots to her. You’re missing out if you’re not already following her.

2. 21 Minutes because his posts are always relevant to his life and thus are relevant to mine. They provoke thought and there’s nothing more inspiring than thought.

3. Nenskei because she’s been so supportive of me. Her blog posts are full of her life experiences, vibrant, refreshing, and always a pleasure to read. She’s like the part of me that I never let out in my own entries.

4. Bluefiadiarries. Fia’s been more of a friend than I’ve ever asked for. She reads my long, overbearing rants and throws at me the most positive advice packed with her own experiences for inspiration. Her blog entries are full of spirit and enthusiasm that I don’t think I’ll ever be able to match.

5. Moon Light who supported me first. She encouraged me to keep writing and keep working at my dreams. There’s no individual more inspirational than she is. She also writes the most intellectually arousing reviews ever. Ever.

6. Eric Alagan. His entire blog screams inspiration. Need I say more?

7. Grandfathersky. I would be lost without his inspiration. I’ve never had so much unconditionaly support from any one person ever. There’s also somethign about his poetry that brings me back again and again to lose myself in a world where things make a little more sense. I’ve learned a lot, grown a lot and he’s been by my side the whole way.

Lovely Blog Award

Rules to this award (they’re a little skewered, but what I think the rules are):
1. Thank the person who nominated you for the award.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself.
3. Nominate other bloggers.

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So first of all, thank you to authormercedes for this wonderful award. She presents strong, sometimes simple, and sometimes complex poetry on her lovely blog. I do implore you all to follow it.

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7 random facts about me (oh this is going to be hard):

1. My room is a mess. I’m not a very organized person unless I want to be.

2. I haven’t touched my guitar in a while. He feels lonely. Yes, he.

3. I love sweets and reacted strongly when offered something sweet. Mmm.

4. Give me a gaming console and a RPG to play and I’ll leave alone for hours.

5. I used to collect erasers.

6. I wasn’t allowed to put up posters in my room…but collected them anyway. So now they’re neatly rolled up in the corner of my room.

7. I want a Siamese cat. Now.

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Nominations!

dragoneystory

hollyannegetspoetic

bluefiadiarries

unwrittentruth

amandahaswords

Creative Chaos Award

Rules to this award:

1. Thank the person who gave you the Award.

2. Take your best shot at the 3 tasks listed below.

3. Nominate 5 people who recently followed your blog.

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A huge thank you goes out to my dear beloved bipolarmuse for constantly thinking of me, supporting me through all my WordPress endeavours, and presenting me with this wonderful award. Her posts provide insightful information into the bipolar disorder and also reach into emotions that are relate-able to everyone. She’s an amazing person and my daily fix of emotion.

Also a warm thanks to my fellow poet Alexander Pseudonym who has also given me this award. His poetry presents a sense of realism and observance that I can’t quite see anywhere else. Unique and wonderful.

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First Task

Three weird things I / you do:

1. I make midnight runs for coffee and donuts when I know I’m staying up late or pulling an all-nighter.

2. I like to hug a stuffed animal while using my laptop….or anytime really.

3. I like to doodle in class.

Second Task:

You must tell why you look at the “glass half full” scenario and ask “what? No coffee?”

A writer needs his or her coffee. For those late nights. Terrible, but sometimes that extra adrenaline can be awe-inspiring.

Third Task:

You find yourself in a desolate place when your car breaks down. You have no cellphone service, no Walmart, and only a candy bar for food. It is 150 miles to the closest town. What colour are your pants and why?

Blue. Like the color of the taffy I’m eating.

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Nominations:

Ottabelle

Bluefiadiaries

ecofinanalysis

pivoine68

echolalias

Very Inspiring Blog Award

Rules for this award:

1.Thank the person who nominated you.

2. Share 7 things about yourself

3. Pass the award to 7 nominees.

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So, first of all, thank you so much to ottabelle for this wonderful award. She’s amazing and her writing will take you into another world. I swear.

I didn’t make this blog to inspire people. I made it to be myself. The fact that someone, anyone, can relate to makes me so happy.  I’ll never think of myself as a very inspiring person, but I’m thankful nonetheless for the award.

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Seven things about me…

1. I have a severe addiction to sugar. Okay, maybe that severe, but whenever I see something sweet, I literally can’t resist.

2. I sleep with like 5 stuffed animals on my bed. They keep me warm.

3. I change my mind really often and it’s difficult for me to choose anything.

4. I still somehow haven’t gotten a new stapler. Sigh.

5. I might’ve mentioned this already, but a while back, I started folding paper cranes and now I have a bunch of them. I’ll never get to 1000.

6. I think bobby pins are magical.

7. I really like to nap on sofas…so it’s not that smart of an idea to have me sit on one.

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Seven nominations! Oh dear, here I go:

1. bipolarmuse

2. grandfathersky

3. kiwsparks

4. kweschn!

5. The Written Word

6. pivoine68

7. Thought Sanctum

Mrs. Sparkly’s Ten Commandments Award

“I am certain that Mrs. Sparkly, a woman of high expectations, commitment and integrity would agree with this approach. She is notable, respected in her own community and likely to be peering down upon us; possibly spell checking and taking notes that feed into a mammoth government information data collection system (MGIDCS). She may have been recruited because of her discretion and integrity even behind closed doors.”

The rules of engagement are:

Ten Questions must be answered with complete honesty or Mrs. Sparkly will find you. Mrs. Sparkly-we love you. We Do! Manners and behavior, words beyond reproach… Then tag five other people.

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1.Describe yourself in seven words.

Stubborn. Silly. Hopeless. Dreamer. Otaku. Geek. Gamer.

2. What keeps you up at night?

School. Idle Thoughts. Blogging. Gaming.

3. Whom would you like to be?

A doctor specializing in Geriatrics. My grandfather has Alzheimer’s and my family does so much to deal with it, but it’s difficult. I’d like to help others that go through the same path – possibly my own family.

4. What are you wearing now?

T-shirt…and shorts. I’m sleepy.

5. What scares you?

Bugs. Being alone.

6. What are the best and worst things about blogging?

Best thing? The support and the wonderful people here.

Worst thing? Not having enough time to read all the blogs I follow.

7. What was the last website you looked at?

Gmail and Tumblr. Sorry WordPress for having a second blog, but I love you more! Maybe.

8. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?

Hard question…I wouldn’t just change one thing…I’d change a lot.

I think I would fix my procrastination habits. Get things done on time instead of at the last moment. I’m procrastinating as we speak so I suppose it’ll take a long, long time before any change occurs.

9. Slankets, yes or no?

Maybe, but I’d rather have a regular blanket. And a cat. And maybe someone to snuggle with.

10. Tell us something about the person who tagged you.

Bipolarmuse is amazing as both a blogger and as a friend. I relate so much to her poetry…it’s wonderful really. The way she deals with being bipolar is stunning and inspirational. I love her blog so, so much.

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Time to nominate. Ugh. I always feel like this is the hardest part.

1. Art Epiphany

2. Kweschn!

3. Conversing with Novels

4. Pivoine68

5. thomag2

Thank you for being my support. Happy Valentine’s Day!

The Kreativ Blogger Award

Rules of the Award:
1. Share ten things no one knows about yourself.
2. Pass it to six other bloggers.

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First of all, thank you to scribblinghermit and Epiphany Art for the wonderful award. I feel so spoiled with receiving all these blog awards and all. Thank you so much! I guess I’ll have to pass this award on to 12 people now due to the double nomination. (Hope that’s not cheating…hehe)

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10 things about myself.

Uck this is going to be hard. Already wasted a lot of good ones on the Versatile Blogger Award.

1. I love cute things. It just has to be cute. Stuffed animals, pets, drawings…you name it.

2. I procrastinate like crazy. A lot of people like to assume I’m hardworking. HAH. No.

3. I prefer cats over dogs. Sorry dog lovers. ):

4. I’ve been gaming on the computer since I was three and a half years old. Total geek here.

5. Started piano when I was almost five years old.

6. I used to be obsessed with techno/alternative music. A lot of it still remains in my playlists. Now? I am obsessed with LIGHTS. (As well as a lot of other pop/country music… Check my homepage for what else I like.)

7. I adore the sound of fingers typing rapidly on a keyboard. The clackier the keyboard, the better.

8. I am against all types of discrimination – racism, sexism – and all types of bullying. If there are rooted reasons behind it, I try to understand and see the other side. It’s hard to.

9. I still watch Spongebob. Sometimes. It’s hard to grow up.

10. I like adding -y to the end of people’s names (if it works).

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Six Twelve blogs I love! (:

1 – Sorealtonight

2 – Grandfathersky

3 – Kiwsparks

4 – Kweschn!

5 – Go Jenzy!

6 – Daydreams

7 – bipolarmuse

8 – The Bard on the Hill

9 – Beneath Snow, Leaf, and Soil

10 – Alexanderpseudonym

11 – Halfway Between the Gutter

12 – iRemember