155 – I’m terrified.

Just woke up from a nightmare and had my very first anxiety attack. I couldn’t stop crying. I couldn’t stop hyperventilating. And I couldn’t stop these intrusive, debilitating thoughts from re-entering my head.

I tried to close my eyes and will myself to go back to sleep, but the nightmare just got more and more vivid. I felt worse and worse until it spiralled out of control.

I’m still in shock this just happened. It wasn’t even real. These feelings are completely out of proportion. And I’m scared. I don’t know how to stop this from happening again. I feel it’s going to come back any second. And I don’t know how to manage it.

Just when I thought I was safe again, a new monster appears. I surrender. Please leave me alone.

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4 thoughts on “155 – I’m terrified.

  1. *BIG HUGS* i hear you, and i feel you. i was once triggered by a nightmare, and what transpired after wasn’t pretty. i hope you find a way to cope with this new stressor/trigger.

  2. Pingback: 156 – The same monster with a different name. | Stronghold

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