I’m confused. Really confused. Drowsy, about to collapse, and yet more confused than anything.
I really don’t know.
I had insomnia last night. Was thinking about society. Yet that’s not what’s confusing me now.
I’m frustrated that I don’t know.
For the sake of writing: MY TAKE ON SOCIETY.
Society’s important and I’m sure no one can really deny that.
It binds living things together – in particular, humans.
It’s the structure that organizes everything.
Law. Government. Hierarchy. Community. Anything organizational.
I like to divide the groups of people within this society up into categories.
THE STATUS QUO – The general norm, anyone who claims to follow societal rules.
LEADERS – The ones that set the rules.
OPPOSERS – Anyone who is firmly against the rules set out by the LEADERS.
OUTCASTS – Anyone who has been either ignored, rejected, or forgotten by society. The people that don’t really ‘fit in’.
My cause for concern?
I think I’m becoming more and more of an ‘outcast’. That scares me. It really does. As a human being, there’s something in my genetic pool that urges me to ‘fit in’ and be a part of society. It urges me to become more like the status quo, to blend in with the social norm. I obviously don’t do that. I don’t stand out either. I don’t go against society. I feel like I couldn’t make a difference even if I tried.
Do I want to be part of the status quo?
I suppose there’s a gray area.
But things are becoming more black and white for me.
I feel like I’ll be properly defined as an outcast if I continue like this.
That thought is frightening.
That thought kept me up for an hour last night.
I still don’t know why I’m confused at the moment.
Writing about last night’s problem does not seem to aid my current confusion.
I’m so freaking confused.
I hate this feeling.
—–tumblr: the world’s cold today.